Time: 4:47 PM
我沈默 不代表我不痛. 我不痛 眼淚就不會流.(Val, i know this song sound familiar to you. )
Oh wells, i hate the facts.
I'm on one month medication, it sucks - alot.
Things revolving around me is never settled. Sometimes, i don't know what to approach to actually move'on. Is it right to wait? I really don't know.
Just like yesterday, i was all alone outside the street. Doing things that was planned beforehand. And when there is 2 free hours in between, i headed to polyclinic. Cause someone reminded me, by whatever means, health is important. And ended up, i earned myself one month medication and an appointment at NSC in Oct, and both are different issues.
Doctor asked me not to get agitated, not to eat too full, not to eat too fast, not to worry this and that, not to kanjiong this and that, not to overwork etc.
Not to get agitated? - When just that mere fyp1 is already making me from bad to worst?
Not to eat too full/fast? - Awh! That my routine for the past 20 years!
Not to worry/kanjiong this and that? - How can? That's Mdm Wong's spirit isn't it?
Not to overwork? - I doubt so if i have things on hand to fulfill.
Did i made my parents worried? I really don't know. I just feel useless, i'm not the healthy baby they used to think.
And fyi, this is the 2nd time i'm having this 'one month medication' this year. Previously was in March when working tat KBox. And i'm not afraid to say that, this medication i'm taking is because my gastric affecting my heart. I really don't know what will happen next minute.
And the pain is intolerable. ):
I had weird dreams these days.
I don't know, maybe life is just unfair.
I'm trying to do as much for this holiday.
Oh wells, i finally cleared my CE module.
Yes, like finally after so long.
-5 more modules to clear till i graduate. (:
Till then.
YahShi
